Exponential Detritus

Anniversaries

2011-09-11T22:35:00.001-07:00

Ten years ago I lived in a different city where the default personality of my acquiantances and co-workers was largely incompatible with my own. Today I sit in a bar singing karaoke with strangers more or less accidentally and it seems about right. It's been a while since I last felt surrounded yet lonely. September 11th ten years ago I felt that times a thousand.

2011-09-11T21:51:00.001-07:00

Klub Kongress Karaoke. Because I am at heart a nerd beyond your wildest imagination.

2011-08-18T07:41:00.001-07:00

"Who cares what games we choose? Little to win, but nothing to lose." - Strawberry Alarm Clock, "Incense & Peppermints"

2011-08-17T07:21:00.001-07:00

Sign at La Placita in Albuquerque ...

2011-08-09T23:57:00.001-07:00

Good night, baffling world full of such chaos and such possibility...till tomorrow, then...

2011-08-06T23:58:00.001-07:00

Giving is a selfish instinct with unselfish consequences.

Monsoon Sonata

2010-07-01T15:08:00.000-07:00

There will be rain at last. The parched desert floor and my sinuses are grateful. I am battling my lack of energy by engaging myself in more projects, both at work and outside of it. Hoping my life will get more well organized as a side effect. Some of it has to do with missing my father and grandfather, I think. They were undeniably smart and undeniably ethical and had character. Somewhere

Auto Draft

2010-07-01T14:47:00.000-07:00

Indie Proverbs

2010-03-07T01:11:00.000-08:00

Saw "A Serious Man" about a month ago and "The Box" last night. The gist of both stories being, basically, humans are fallible but Karma will still get us in the end...heavy underlying religious themes in both. What is with the sudden rash of indie film moral quandry mongering? Actually really enjoyed both films. When I saw "A Serious Man," it was in a theater and the audience erupted in nervous

Back on the horse again, but will likely fall off of said horse as per usual...

2010-01-09T05:11:00.000-08:00

So, I signed up for WRT 102 for the third time in my life. Such damned irony. I was at one point going to be an English major and get a PHD and all of these grandiose stupid plans. I was going to be a writer. But my writer’s block always got in the way of the writing aspirations. Because fate has a sarcastic sense of humour.WRT 102 attempt number one: Fall 1992. I actually aced the class this

el día siguiente

2010-01-02T15:22:00.000-08:00

Current mood: contemplativeNew Year's Eve...somehow hadn't got the spine for it this year.I stepped into the cold parking lot of the neighborhood Denny's for takeout hamburgers at 7pm in my leather jacket and plum Converse One Stars under an unexpected full moon. Spend most of the night curled up on the couch reading a book on my Android phone. At midnight, we watched Squidbillies and I drank a

It's December again...

2009-12-06T02:51:00.000-08:00

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It's 10:45, I'm still alive, I'm still alive...

2009-08-30T02:43:00.000-07:00

Haven't posted much recently. Low energy mainly has caused me to lurk and be generally low outut. Apparently there was an internal cause that I missed - for all this. Low calcium (dangerously low) and then low potassium. Ended up in the hospital - same one I spent my 16th summer in (PTSD Details to be hashed out later) and barely avoided a heart attack or coma. Must take better care of myself,

Of Sunday breakfast, Hackintosh Envy and Ian Svenonius

2009-05-17T02:36:00.000-07:00

I wake on a Sunday and my small children brag about how many bowls of cereal they can eat in one sitting. Apple Jacks. We went to the regular grocery store for a change, instead of the socially responsible grocery store. My vehicle is out of commission and beggars can't be choosers. Listening to Rasputina on Rhapsody and wishing I had more money. I have been coveting a $399 Dell Mini "Hackintosh"

For the last time, I'm not in the "recycled computers" business

2009-04-28T05:44:00.000-07:00

Interesting discussion at my work: re advertising. People wonder what it is we "do" even when we stand in front of a sign explicity stating "We buy used I.T./We sell used I.T." Then, if they do "get it" they still misunderstand the "sell" part and think we are in the used Pentium II computer disposal business. "How nice, do you donate those to schools?" they will say.No. We do not. Not that

2009-03-08T10:29:00.000-07:00

My spine suddenly feels the need to remind me that it is basically stapled and duct taped together. Ouch!

2009-02-14T18:54:00.000-08:00

Windows 7 complaint of the week: why the HELL can't I extract downloaded .zip files in Windows 7?

2009-02-14T10:15:00.000-08:00

Great Amanda Palmer post re: her "Oasis" video and censorship: http://ping.fm/3BthG

2009-02-14T09:56:00.000-08:00

Slacking on the couch eating cherry pancakes, watching DVR'd cartoons, websurfing and being poor but fortunate this Valentine's day...

2009-02-14T09:55:00.000-08:00

Opera 9.63 hearts Windows 7 this Valentine's day...no major issues, crashes or weirdness.

2009-02-09T20:03:00.000-08:00

...back from the land of the semilucid & life did not wait for me. Laundry knows no sick days,nor do piles of dishes.

2009-02-08T22:19:00.000-08:00

Feeling less ill. Well enough to indulge in some power used-bookstore lurking & serial pancake eating before nightfall. Tomorrow the world.

2009-02-06T08:56:00.000-08:00

...tired of being sick and sick of being tired...curse this viral infection to the depths of purgatory and soforth...

2009-02-04T19:02:00.000-08:00

Home sick today - spent time couchbound w/ my Win 7 Beta install. Like this version of Media Center better - not enough web content though.

2009-02-02T20:25:00.000-08:00

Burnt my cookies. This is not a metaphor. Actually burnt some sugar cookies and it smells quite unpleasant.

2009-02-01T13:45:00.000-08:00

First Windows 7 crash: blue screen of death encountered upon trying to install AVG antivirus 8. We soldier onwards.

2009-02-01T12:38:00.000-08:00

Good Article on "Why Open Source?" here:http://ping.fm/ukiEu

2009-02-01T12:06:00.000-08:00

Win 7 Beta is go! First thoughts? Windows 7 is to Vista as XP was to Win 2000. Same idea but improved upon slightly...

2009-01-31T18:57:00.000-08:00

Downloading Windows 7 beta. To be conintued...

2009-01-30T12:25:00.000-08:00

Was up too late last night trying to defend using Wordpress for small business web design. It's not "Grandma's blog" it's streamlined CMS...

2009-01-29T10:01:00.000-08:00

Hmmm...maybe it was this guy: www.throughatruckerseyes.blogspot.com

2009-01-27T19:30:00.000-08:00

At the Safeway Deli, where choice is not king…Me: I want a two piece chicken with potato salad for one of my sides and…Safeway Clerk: No! You can only get the sides that go with the chicken!Me: Ok, which sides go with the chicken then?Safeway Clerk:You can only have the JoJo potatoesMe: Then why does it say I have a “choice” of two sides?Safeway Clerk: (Stares Blankly)Me: Well, those don’t look

2009-01-27T19:29:00.000-08:00

Today has been one of those days when all that I touch turns to suck, in not horrible ways, but mild irritating gnat bites of let down...

At the Safeway Deli, where choice is not king...

2009-01-27T06:37:00.000-08:00

Me: I want a two piece chicken with potato salad for one of my sides and...Safeway Clerk: No! You can only get the sides that go with the chicken!Me: Ok, which sides go with the chicken then?Safeway Clerk:You can only have the JoJo potatoesMe: Then why does it say I have a "choice" of two sides?Safeway Clerk: (Stares Blankly)Me: Well, those don't look very good. Could I get just the chicken?

Memento Mori

2009-01-10T00:01:00.000-08:00

Here's a link to the story about my father in theTucson Citizen. He would have written a better story, but the state of journalism being what it is...

Schroedinger's Waiting Room...

2009-01-08T15:52:00.000-08:00

My dad passed away thursday afternoon at about 2 o'clock. it was sort of unexpectedly expected. We knew it was a looming possibility but not an immediate or inevitable certainty. It took me by surprise, but not shock. In the car ride on the way over, I didn't know yet if he had died or if he would live. I couldn't fully simultaneously contemplate the dual possibilities . So I just drove. I was

the opening and closing of various gates...

2008-12-31T02:15:00.000-08:00

...and so another year ends, in sickness and in health...good fortunes to perfectly balance the bad...a year that canceled itself out, more or less...I let it go out quietly, hoping for a louder season, a much much brighter, louder season this next circling of the sun...sometimes we relish the quiet...but may we not go gently this time around...life being for the living and all of that...Happy

Myth of the day: Cingaya the Beautiful, Virgin of the 5 Towns (A Basque Legend)

2008-12-29T05:38:00.000-08:00

This is a Basque tale that echoes the tale of Dante and Beatrice somewhat, albeit with a much happier ending...http://www.sacred-texts.com/neu/basque/lbp/lbp11.htm

Return of the Reverend Adam...

2008-12-28T07:08:00.000-08:00

Good news for a new year...Reverend Glasseye is officially back together! One hopes this means they will be touring. One of the best shows I ever saw on the tiny stage at Vaudeville...

Gwenhwyfar lived to be old, Elaine did not...

2008-11-12T05:06:00.000-08:00

...and the girls we once were float down the River to time and go under. Drowned, we all assume.But then again...lots of unexplained, feminine looking, sword brandishing hands emerging from the misty waters in these stories...had to have come from somewhere, originally...it's not as though they ever found the bodies...dead is not always so very dead in faery tales...Strange dreams and disrupted

Gratefulness: 7 things on a Sunday Morning

2008-11-09T02:31:00.000-08:00

1)Listening to our local "pirate" radio station run by baby Anarchists:www.freeradiochukshon.org2)Breakfast is hostess cupcakes and mexican dark coffee with cream on the porch with candles and incense and the Sunday paper. Dishes can wait...3)We won, we won, we fucking won...I volunteered my time and $5 I couldn't afford to a candidate that actually won! I kind of feel like a Timequake has

Election MySpace digest...

2008-11-06T02:40:00.000-08:00

Wednesday, November 05, 2008We can be Heroes (forever and ever)Current mood: luminousCategory: LifeI watched the race called for Obama at 9pm last night on CNN at the Red Garter - somebody had put "Heroes" on the jukebox. It could not have been more perfect. I feel joy. Pure and simple joy. Maybe, just maybe, the world will be a better place again.Happy Guy Fawkes Day, by the way. And Happy

2008-09-15T15:08:00.000-07:00

Still struggling to find my lost voice. Perhaps I should post a flyer on a telephone pole. My gutlessness is a daily disappointment to the carrion birds.

Contents Under Pressure May Explode...

2008-09-13T14:05:00.000-07:00

Inarticulation has reached critical mass. I have always been so good at holding things together even when I don't hold things together. Pathologically even tempered. Lately though I feel like I am on 24 hour permanent on call status for everyone. I have so much I am responsible for everywhere that I cannot get anything done anywhere. I have reached the proverbial breaking point. One thing on the

La Loteria...

2008-09-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

I've just randomly discovered that those eerie images one sees on Downtown area folkart matchbooks and wooden ladder games does indeed have a history...You know, the images of "The Mermaid" and "El Diablo" and "El Corazon?" The official name is Loteria and it's yet another example of wild and uncultivated mythology echoing Appalachian English Folk Songs or the African pantheons in SanteriaLoteria

Cliffhanger

2008-08-18T03:26:00.000-07:00

I am inexplicably queasy this morning. End of summer migraine weirdness. It is a Monday in August of a year in which our cultural and societal debt is being referred to third party collections and our planet is on the verge of being repossessed by the forces of nature. It's a scary time to be alive, I guess. Yet somehow we persist. Maybe out of a desire to see what happens next. How can we

William Blake Tarot reading of the day...

2008-08-17T12:51:00.000-07:00

The left card represents an important element of the past. Sun: Being illuminated by imagination and inspiration. Liberation from old patterns. Realization of your personal goals. Radiating joy, finding delight in life. A feeling of Returning to the Source. Angels on your shoulders. Things flowing smoothly. Dawning consciousness. Cutting away from the past. Feeling welcomed and at ease.The middle

Saturday, May 05, 2007 Lead will never be gold it is just lead...

2007-05-15T14:03:00.000-07:00

Lead will never be gold it is just lead...Current mood: depressedCategory: LifeI am leaden footedly sad. Irrationally, hormonally, moodily, chemically, embedded in my cells depressed. I have gradually holed myself up and lost touch with my friends and family, even more so since the fire. I never go out anymore. I am feeling alone and obsolete. I have a partner who loves me, but he is a stoic

April 24, 2006

2006-04-24T12:28:00.000-07:00

Seventeen years is too long a fogPlace upon the mantle your old volume with a new roseTime does not sympathize, marches in spite of youYour bones are still olderYour days are still numberedSeventeen years of thisDon't really matterAs long as the rent gets paidAs long as the kids get fedYour half life's your whole life nowSleep long enough and the rest of it sloughs offYou are

Life is what happens to you while...

2006-04-02T09:09:00.000-07:00

...you're busy making other plans...(John Lennon)

Detritus: Giant sucking noise that is poverty edition...

2006-02-28T14:36:00.000-08:00

As most of you well know, from recent or current experience, poverty sucks! Because once you're down, my loves, they keep kicking you, is pretty much how it goes, or whatever. Things that suck the most:1)The people who are most patient with you and therefore most deserving will invariably get paid last and latest because you are forced to deal first with those who threaten to sue you, take your

Went to the peace fair...

2006-02-26T09:50:00.000-08:00

...but I didn't find peace...and life isn't fair..."The punk rock'll kill you if the government don't get you first..."-Rhett Miller of The Old 97s

"Banshees And Warnings" by Lady Augusta Gregory

2006-02-26T09:46:00.000-08:00

"Then Cuchulain went on his way, and Cathbad that had followed him went with him. And presently they came to a ford, and there they saw a young girl thin and white-skinned and having yellow hair, washing and ever washing, and wringing out clothing that was stained crimson red, and she crying and keening all the time. 'Little Hound,' said Cathbad, 'Do you see what it is that young girl is doing?

So, I'm in the running for a door cashier gig at Club Congress...

2006-02-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

Who would ever have guessed someday I'd have a job interview that included the question "How would you describe The Sweat Band to someone who'd never heard them?"Or that I'd get a chance to interview with a real live Sand Ruby?Oh, the glamourness of my life..."The punk rock'll kill you if the government don't get you first..."-Rhett Miller of The Old 97s

Days Of Thanks And Chaos...

2005-11-27T05:43:00.000-08:00

About time I wrote something, I guess...Friday limbo, was playing Nick Cave and Leadbelly and songs from an old lover. Day After Blues, wandering, newspaper brooding in the Dinosaur MacDonalds, bookstore lingering over hot chocoolate and idiot shoppers with my sweet little girls whov'e learned a Tom Waits song. Sarah sings it "remember the girl with the sun in her eyes and I'll kiss you" then she

Things learned whilst researching a song, part 1...

2005-11-23T18:10:00.000-08:00

From "Welcome To Leadbelly Homepage:Huddie William Ledbetter was born on January 29, 1885 on the Jeter Plantation near Mooringsport, Louisiana. He was the only child of his parents Wesley and Sally. Huddie and his parents moved to Leigh, Texas when he was five and it was there that he became interested in music, encouraged by his uncle Terrell who bought Huddie his first musical instrument, an

remember

2005-10-30T07:12:00.000-08:00

Never knew you, but I hear you were beautifulHear you were angry sometimesGuess you never knew that you were lovedWell you were lovedFor what it's worthSo goodnight punk rock girlGoodby lonely oneHope you found your peace at last

That which cannot be competed with...

2005-10-20T03:34:00.000-07:00

Fine leathers, triumphs against adversity, and dead ex-girlfriends."Good manners and bad breath will bet you nowhere..."-Elvis Costello

Lazarus Girl Is...

2005-10-03T19:06:00.000-07:00

...back from the dead again. For as much as it counts. Thinking it'll be different this time. This carrot will be different. Thinking that life will be good and recognition will be earned and trust will be rewarded. Love's no different whether you go looking for it or it blindsides you. Fairness will always elude the mankind. Intelligence is the curse that it ever was. But here I still am.

The Picts

2005-08-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

The Picts were the early inhabitants of Scotland, so called "barbarian" tribes who often skirmished with the Celtic Britons living to the south of them, sometimes living on the spoils of their attacks. Little historic documentation is available regarding them, as Scotland gradually became Celticized itself. The only text left to us by the Picts is their king-list, which gives the names and the

Thought provoking Site Of The Day...

2005-06-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

Postnet:(where people send in their deepest secrets on the back of a postcard and somebody posts it.)--Context is Optional: www.corbid.net

Occam's Razor

2004-12-19T15:03:00.000-08:00

History of Occam's RazorWilliam of Ockham (also spelled Occam) was a Franciscan theologian born in Surrey, England, around 1285. He studied at Oxford and later at Paris. His philosophical views made him a polemic scholar. He died in Munich, Germany, around 1349.Although the general idea of the preference for simplicity is attributed to William of Ockham, there are some precedents. Some writings

First the bad news...

2004-12-12T14:28:00.000-08:00

I spun my car tonight. Avoiding the same sort of traffic scenario thatnearly did me in the first time. Something inside me snapped and I decided"This car will NOT hit me!" and as it failed to yield and left turnedalmost into me I decided to drive around it. And somehow I did even thoughit kept coming, except that at that point "going around it" consisted ofending up spinning sickeningly out of

Celtic Cross Spread

2004-12-09T06:05:00.000-08:00

Ten of WandsThis is a card that says that the Querent has used up all the energy they started with at the ace. They don't feel that creative, driving force any more. Indicates a need to delegate, to put down some burdens and find energy again.The SunThe light that comes after the long dark night. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. Discoveries made while fully conscious and wide

Nine And A Half Hour Dream...

2004-12-09T00:02:00.000-08:00

Dreamt my mother called me at an odd hour. I jokingly asked who'd died,butshe didn't laugh. I know it wasn't my father, because I could hear him inthe background. Then I dreamt Mike called me up and reamed me out andswore at me (at least I HOPE it was a dream) at about 4:15 am and thenthat I was in a hospital parking lot trying to get child leukemia patientsback to their rooms. Before that, I

twas the night before nothing

2004-12-07T06:15:00.000-08:00

Not a creature was stirring...

667

2004-12-03T00:03:00.000-08:00

Gonna make a deal with the devil...

Q & A

2004-12-02T01:44:00.000-08:00

Why do we hurt the ones we love? Because they're the only ones that will always forgive us. Now is that fair? No, it's not at all fair. Is there a way out? The Goddess only knows. I want to do good. I want to rise above my current circumstances. I just need someone to throw me a rope because I'm drowning and I have lots of company in the waters but no hope of making it out alive. Everyone I know

Icy pouring rain

2004-11-22T12:09:00.000-08:00

Icy pouring rainicy pouring rainicy pouring rain...zippy the pinhead and jack chick tractsfound on the floor at randomI couldn't have found something like thatif I'd had amillion yearsbut I wasn't tryingIf I overgift someone it is because they are expected to share, soBeware if I ever give you books for a present...If you know someone I've given books toby all means make them shareAs that was

Terrible Beauty

2004-11-20T00:00:00.000-08:00

If there is a heart, it is not subject to free will, but rather is a book that can't be put down, a song running through your head, a train on a track to certain disaster and all you can do is stand back and wait and watch and steel yourself against the coming crash, the inevitable implosion, the waiting disaster...when you wake again, cold and alone you are somehow never worse for the wear...

Multiphasic Etiquette

2004-11-18T05:15:00.000-08:00

Just because Mr. Hyde invited you doesn't mean you'll be welcomed by Dr. Jekyll ...(detritus)(poetica)(myth)(opinion)(divination)

Ahhh!!! Shite!!!

2004-11-17T09:10:00.000-08:00

Whence hath come this grotesque monstrosity of a pimple upon my chin???Does drinking give you pimples? I've been laying off the candy, what the fuck???

I'd be remiss if I didn't mention the following...

2004-11-10T00:42:00.000-08:00

Gallery Silver Sea Grand Opening and Art Show: November 20th, 8pm at Silver Sea, 137 E. Congress:This will be the official grand opening of Gallery Silver Sea, a pioneering concept in expanding the parameters of the Tucson Arts District while simultaneously promoting Downtown small business. This could be the future of Rio Nuevo development, the key to a successful and vital Downtown. Then again,

jealousy

2004-11-03T23:43:00.000-08:00

When I was young I thought I knew what jealousy was and I thought that it could be conquered. Jealousy was the scary incongrous thing that showed up every three years or so to make false accusations and leave me curled up in a ball on the floor crying and pleading my absolute innocence. It was a small price to pay, I thought, for what appeared to be unconditional love and acceptance. It didn't

Oh Well...

2004-11-03T08:28:00.000-08:00

Guess I can always move to Canada, right?

And don't forget to vote!!!

2004-11-02T01:00:00.000-08:00

Consult Bookslut.com's election survival guide for any needed assistance.

Dangerous Needlework

2004-11-02T00:47:00.000-08:00

A tale of Mary Queen Of Scots...

Happy Celtic New Year

2004-11-01T13:26:00.000-08:00

may the wheel of the year spin brightly this time around.

Adventures in Surreality...

2004-10-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

Billy Corgan throws a Poetry Reading...

The Fool

2004-10-26T11:38:00.000-07:00

"... Innocence and naivety are associated with The Fool,for the young have no fear of new experiences or change.As you grow older you can lose that childish innocence andenthusiasm, and can become fearful and cynical of changeand new experiences.The mind of The Fool is always open, an empty vesseleagerly waiting to be filled with new knowledge. Anyexperience, pleasant or challenging, is life

Fun with Airmen part 2

2004-10-23T01:30:00.000-07:00

Went to a bar last night to meet some friends. Witnessed a male air force officer and a woman in a black pantsuit nearly get into a fistfight over the war. Not the rightness or wrongness of it, either. They were arguing over whether the air force officer at the bar or the woman's air force officer husband had "done more for the cause of freedom." Incidentally, I wonder how the woman hoped to

America The Clueless

2004-10-22T00:08:00.000-07:00

George W. Bush wants to "spread freedom" like it's some kind of virus. The election's in a dead heat. I can't believe it's a dead heat. I can't believe people can't see through this guy. I overheard a woman at work in the bathroom yesterday saying she was a registered Democrat, but she'd vote for Bush because she'd "heard John Kerry was a flipflopper on issues." She heard it somewhere, probably

AA is the only place he can pick up women anymore...

2004-10-20T00:22:00.000-07:00

Kurt Vonnegut interviews Kilgore Trout for "the last time."

Reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated...

2004-10-19T13:56:00.000-07:00

I've been feeling somewhat rather like shite on and off and things suck no less than usual, for the most part, but I am in fact still breathing for those of you who may have expressed concern. Love and lollipops from the Corbidful One who does not die no matter what they do to her.

Forward to the Blog: Silver Sea Fall Calendar

2004-10-15T11:45:00.000-07:00

From: "Lady Elizabeth Amalthia Sterling"Date: 2004/10/15 Fri PM 02:00:03 EDTTo: SilverSeaSiren@yahoogroups.comSubject: [SilverSeaSiren] Silver Sea Happenings!!!The happening's at the store that we have scheduled are asfollows :Oct.16th- Club Crawl (street wide event)Silver Sea features Live Music, Tarot Readings and Lollipops. Open till 1amNo Cover- wristband or no- there is no cost for

WWKCD?

2004-10-10T12:16:00.000-07:00

I am posing a new challenge to the readers of this blog in the tradition of "What would Jesus do?"I want you to think deeply about the following in any given difficult situation: What Would Kurt Cobain Do?Meditate on this and act accordingly, within reason, of course.Thank you and goodnight.The Corbidful One.

Lyrics Of The Day:

2004-10-07T13:39:00.000-07:00

(The Cure,off Kiss Me Kiss Me Kiss Me...)"How Beautiful You Are"You want to know why I hate you?Well I’ll try and explain...You remember that day in parisWhen we wandered through the rainAnd promised to each otherThat we’d always think the sameAnd dreamed that dreamTo be two souls as oneAnd stopped just as the sun setAnd waited for the nightOutside a glittering buildingOf glittering glass and

Oscar Wilde Quote Of the Day

2004-10-06T15:01:00.000-07:00

The imagination imitates. It is the critical spirit that creates.

Tom Waits Quote Of The Day

2004-10-04T14:51:00.000-07:00

"There was nothing wrong with her that $100 wouldn't fix."Only in my case it's more like $2,000 and an emergency Zoloft prescription.PS: To Tina's brother and his girlfriend - hope you're safe and well and that you realize things are not as bad as they seem, but also fuck you very much for endangering yourselves and worrying your families to death. Please return home safely and soon. And never

Not an exaggeration:I'm completely fucked right now...

2004-10-04T14:36:00.000-07:00

... my goose is cooked - the fat lady has sung - the devil wants his due, etc. My life has persisted in becoming a nightmare of Jobian proportions and now on top of the job layoff followed by loss of income, followed by loss of transportation and a job offer way too far away to take the bus to, followed by fumigation and possible threat to my ability to maintain custody of my children,followed by

Word Of The Day: Schadenfreude

2004-10-01T11:14:00.000-07:00

(noun)[SHAWD?n?froi'?dah]1. delight in another person's misfortune: "Hal felt an eerie mixture of empathy and schadenfreude whenever he listened to his friends discuss their problems."

Be fruitful and mutliply

2004-10-01T00:26:00.000-07:00

Oh, those wacky Germans and their pornographic candy...The fine people at Haribo have intorduced a line of apparently rather frisky fruit candy.The complaints they received from a Catholic college were apparently a hoax but theirwebsite remains one of the more hallucinogenic things I have ever seen on the internet, ranking up there with that one truly puzzling anime Kikkoman ad I featured in this

Another Day, And More Undead To Slay...

2004-09-27T21:07:00.000-07:00

Seven Line PoemEndymion's a restless dreamerStormtossed coffin bound in raging moonlightCold skin, warm lips,heart full of nailsYour Sleeping Beauty's a boy tonightThat Siren sweet singing will never raise the deadBut the song is a prayer and his breathing is steadyAnd the night smells like Hyacinth and miracles...(detritus)(poetica)(myth)(opinion)(divination)

Aquatic Tarot Of the Day

2004-09-27T14:03:00.000-07:00

Four of Wands (Completion): A chance to rest and rejoice, having successfully resolved a matter of great import. The initial success of a business venture or creative project. The blossoming of a friendship or romantic relationship. Conclusions drawn based on hard won experience. Spiritual, material, or emotional rewards for diligent effort. May suggest marriage, childbirth, or a victory

Why I've dumped most of the men I've ever been with...

2004-09-25T12:06:00.000-07:00

...simple neglect.I ask very, very little. That doesn't mean I want nothing. So maybe I've got it all wrong. Maybe I should stop being so easy going and understanding and then I won't ever be in a position to be treated like a doormat again. Maybe failure to be demanding is essentially saying to a guy "your needs and quirks and intricacies are way more important than anything to do with stupid

On Ice

2004-09-25T04:03:00.000-07:00

There's an episode of "Friends" in which one of the characters is so frightened by a Stephen King novel that the book has to be put in the freezer. A friend of mine told me recently that they threw a copy of "The Shining" into the desert because it bothered them that much. While I myself am not a great Stephen King fan per se, I've been reading one of his books and I've come to the point where I

Even Japanese mythology is bizarre...

2004-09-24T10:54:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time there was a monk who was in service to a high priest. Hewas married and had children.One summer day, this man accompanied his master to Mii temple. It was a hotday and he was sleepy so he took a nap in a hidden corner in the hall of thetemple. He had a dream and in his dream he was visited by a beautiful woman.They made love in the dream and the sensation was so vivid and intense

Like an overenthused cafeteria patron...

2004-09-24T00:53:00.000-07:00

...I have too much on my plate.

Amnesiac Lover

2004-09-22T11:18:00.000-07:00

Baby's an amnesiacand never ever calls you backyou could die tonight of a heart attackamnesiac loverwould never discovermight confuse you with anothertells the same storiestells the same storiestells the same storiesa hundred times a day

Available White Female In Search Of A Deity...

2004-09-18T12:35:00.000-07:00

Wanted: some sort of divine being or pantheon or mythical entity I can invoke to solve my immediate concerns just to the degree that I can cope with them and reverse my sour luck. Vengeful Father Gods and crucified martyrs need not apply. The proper candidate will enjoy my songs and praises and libations as well as some good word of mouth on my various blogs and maybe a statuette or a tattoo or