Friday, May 28, 2004

Morgana's Stones reading of the day...

Orange,The Stone Of Power-
This is the stone of power, success, control, and will. Orange is a very
strong, powerful colour. It contains the passion of red activated by
yellow. This combination becomes sheer Willpower, the ability to manifest
all that is desired.

Moonstone-
The Moonstone reflects the influence of the Divine Mother. She represents
the cyclical nature of life and our own waxing and waning. The Moonstone
is the wishing stone. Where she lands all things are possible.


Wednesday, May 26, 2004

Crystal Ball Reading Of the Day

Be careful what you wish for, you may get it!

If only I knew 100 people...

...that would lend me $5 each, I'd be golden.

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Crowdsurfing

Sometimes when you can't carry your own weight you have to shut your eyes
and dive right in and hope nobody's gonna drop you...

Morgana's Stones reading of the day...

Orange,The Stone Of Power-
This is the stone of power, success, control, and will. Orange is a very
strong, powerful colour. It contains the passion of red activated by
yellow. This combination becomes sheer Willpower, the ability to manifest
all that is desired.

Moonstone-
The Moonstone reflects the influence of the Divine Mother. She represents
the cyclical nature of life and our own waxing and waning. The Moonstone
is the wishing stone. Where she lands all things are possible.


Monday, May 24, 2004

William Blake Tarot Cards Of The Day

Ace of Music (Passion): "The desire of Man being Infinite the possession is Infinite & himself Infinite." Release of emotions. Upsurge of creative power. Unlimited potential. Being carried away by your emotions (swept up on wings of song). Feeling a passion for life. Wanting to achieve the highest potentials in yourself and the situation. Following your bliss. Feeling a deep sense of grace and fulfillment. Vulnerability and openness. In the creative process: A passionate desire to rise above the norm, to soar to personal new heights of creative vision.



( Six of Science (Passage): Opening the way or clearing obstacles. Movement of information. A Rite of Passage. A stressful journey. Seeking a sense of purpose. Receiving guidance from a higher source. Exploring new terrain. In the creative process: Your imagination needs to be uncovered or unleashed by resolving contradictory elements and seeking spiritual guidance.



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Sunday, May 23, 2004

As I fall asleep where I sit, I'm...


...dreaming of clipper ships passing through a harbor.
I have no idea what this means.
I'm going to bed now.

Now that I'm all alone...

I am less alone than I've ever been before.

Saturday, May 22, 2004

Listening to...

...Tori and Nirvana.

One to motivate, the other to cathart, an appropriate blend, like whiskey in your tea.

Bonus points that my beautiful wee girls like to dance to both since they are all that matters anymore.

Thought I Had

You know how when men have a problem or some sort of crisis or issue,
generally they want to talk about it, but they don't want a solution? They
just want to hear "that sucks" or "what a bummer" and then maybe hear a
good joke to take their minds off the thing, and other guys instinctively
know this? Well I think the equivalent with women is ego stroking.
Seriously. Something I've been noticing lately is as soon as one woman
goes to another with a major crisis, the other woman always ends the
conversation with "You're such a
strong/intelligent/beautiful/fill-in-theblank person and I know you'll get
through this." Or something like that. And even if we know it's a load of
shit it somehow always makes us feel better. And if men and women just
realized this about each other, maybe we would all get along just
famously. Or at least we would stick our feet in our mouths on a less
regular basis. Or something.

The Return Of Pan

lyrics by the Waterboys



"I stood upon the balcony with my brand new bride

the clink of bells came drifting down the mountainside

When in our sight something moved

- lightning eyed and cloven hooved -

The great god Pan is alive!



He moves amid the modern world in disguise

it's possible to look into his immortal eyes

He's like a man you'd meet anyplace

Until you recognise that ancient face

The great god Pan is alive!



At sea on a ship in a thunder storm

on the very night that Christ was born

A sailor heard from overhead

a mighty voice cry "Pan is dead!"

So follow Christ as best you can

Pan is dead! Long Live Pan!



From the olden days and up through all the years

from Arcadia to the stone fields of Inisheer

Some say the Gods are just a myth

but guess who I've been dancing with

The great god Pan is alive!
"



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Nirvana Lyrics Demystified...

...at the Cobain Memorial Website.

untitled

If I told you what my tears taste like

You wouldn't in a million years believe me

Here I am again

Driving in a wall of sound

Shutting out the world

Before it shuts me out

I can cry and rage and scream, but

Inside I never feel a thing

Like my body's still alive

and my brain can't quite reach it

I've been so frozen and so distanced for so long

It's a wonder I can function

It's a wonder I'm here at all

Sometimes I think I can laugh myself awake

Or that I could be loved into being

If only I were worth it

Why I keep trying is pretty much beyond me

These words are not a work of art

Just the truth

Something with which I have a tenous relationship

I think I'd rather be a monster than a liar anymore

you can't really suffer when you're not all there

So what am I afraid of?



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Tarot Cards of the Day

The Hanged Man: Pausing to reflect. Surrendering to an experience. Adjusting to new ideas through sacrifice. Opening oneself to intuition and enhanced awareness. Letting go of past patterns and growing beyond them. Inner peace, faith, and serenity.



Queen of Swords, when reversed: The dark essence of air behaving as water, such as a cold rain: A person gifted with both keen logic and natural intuition, giving them uncanny powers of perception and insight. One who easily sees the weakness in any argument, and savages friend and foe alike with biting sarcasm. Dry and vicious wit covering a hollow sense of isolation and dissatisfaction with life.





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Friday, May 21, 2004

I am in need of resolve. Or the motivational mental equivalent of Xanax. I know all of the things I need to do, and I have the energy to do them, I just never know where to start. So I sit here balanced and teetering on a precipice and not quite falling and not quite stepping back. Or maybe that's a bit dramatic. Maybe I just need some sort of motivating message or organizational chart or something. At least I'm not depressed and catatonic anymore. I just need to start doing something next while I'm in the process of worrying about what to do next. Maybe that doesn't make any sense. Whatever. I'm rambling. Go visit Mcsweeney's and ignore me.

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Simple Rituals if one were inclined to believe in that sort of thing...

Ending Depression

Recite 3 times the following:

Blessed Mother turn your face,

See with Love this empty space,

Renew my heart with love for life.

Remove from me this pain and strife.



Catalyst for Change

Need: a piece of clear quartz or a diamond.

Hold the quartz in your hand, close your eyes and take three deep breaths. Bring to mind all the restrictions and limitations in your life. Allow yourself to feel any emotions that surface as a result. Visualize your limitations, see your frustration transforming. See them become a catalyst for change, motivate you to release the past and create a better future.

Know that, just like coal is transformed into a diamond by intense pressure, your life's frustrations and pressures are working to create a better you. Carry the crystal with you as a reminder.



Finding the perfect job


Need: Classified section, tape or glue, paper/pen, marker, objects to burn paper.

Write or type a blurb about yourself as if you are writing a help-available ad. Include your general qualities, what you'd like to do day to day at work, your pay range, be realistic.

Now, write a help-wanted ad. Don't mention any specific company or employer. Just write it so that the job position would be a perfect match to what you wrote for your help-available post.

Glue both ads into the appropriate part of the classified section of the newspaper.

Cast a circle. Inside the circle, take a black marker and circle both of your ads, connecting them with a line. This is your new Perfect Job Symbol. Concentrate on it.

Burn the newspaper, releasing your intent. In a few days, look through the want ads and find your job waiting for you.






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Tarot Cards of the Day

Queen of Swords: The essence of air behaving as water, such as a refreshing mist: A person gifted with both keen logic and natural intuition, giving them uncanny powers of perception and insight. One who easily sees past deception and confusion to the heart of a matter, and understands both sides of any argument. The embodiment of calm, forthrightness, and wit, in the face of even the most trying circumstances.



Justice: The achievement of balance and inner harmony after a great trial. Agreements, contracts, or treaties concluded justly. Things set to rights. Karma restored. A turn for the better in legal matters.



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I am indeed still alive, it seems...

Saw Shrek 2 and it was rather cute for a sequel, at least the few minutes of it I saw when I wasn't busy chasing a two year old back to her seat. And I attended a kindergarten graduation today and I was quite proud. And some day I will be able to watch a video that doesn't star the Care Bears, but it's not going to be tonight, it looks like...The more my life changes, the more it stays the same, I guess.


My other thought for the day is...if I ever have five minutes to myself again, I'm volunteering for the Democratic Party. Although I may never have five minutes to myself again, that may just be wishful thinking.

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Neil Gaiman Dream

Dreamt I went at the last minute to a Neil Gaiman signing and ran into the

man as he exited the restroom, but was too dumbfounded to speak. He was

just as I pictured him, but with a streak of grey hair in the back.He was

rather elfin, actually, is the only thing I hadn't initially surmised.

Luckily I had Sandman comics in the back of my car. Advice for lucid

dreamers: everything you need can be kept in the trunk of your car. To get

to the signing, I had to thwart my parents, whom for some reason I still

lived with. I have a lot of dreams where I still live with my parents.

Maybe it's time to finally grow up.





Oh, yes...

I do believe I promised you the story of my Neil Gaiman dream...